Demi Lovato shows off her American pride in this new shot from the August 2012 issue of Self.
The 19-year-old X Factor judge opened up about what’s on her bucket list, working with Britney Spears and Simon Cowell and more. Check it:
On working with Simon: Simon’s so funny and so cool, and LA—he’s really awesome. He seems really, really sweet so I’m excited to get to work with all of them. I was totally nervous about Simon, too. I was expecting him to be mean or something, because of American Idol, you know? He’s like so, just, real.
On her sky-diving dreams: “I’ve bungee jumped—one time I bungee jumped three times in a row, like back to back. I got really nauseous afterwards, so I learned my lesson not to do that. I’ve never been skydiving but I really want to. It’s definitely on my bucket list.”
On feeling beautiful: “I used to feel my most beautiful when I was on the red carpet or at events or something where I’m all dolled up. Now I feel like the moment when I feel most beautiful is when I’m able to hang out with a guy without my makeup on or lay on the beach with no makeup on and not even worrying about what my hair or what I look like before I fall asleep. When I’m confident enough to show myself without makeup on, that’s when I feel my most confident.”
How have your friends helped you get healthy? @laurabrounstein: “I surround myself with people who make positive decisions and who have more interests than wanting to go to clubs and get wasted. My friends and I look out for each other, and I love just inviting everyone over to watch TV. I like Law & Order—except it makes me want to go out and inspect everyone on the street to see if they’re a serial killer!”
What’s it like being the youngest judge on X Factor? @Thelexarlexie: “It’s so much fun! I root for everyone. I mean, it’s not the best feeling when you’re watching someone and cringing. But when a person’s confidence is magnetic, I don’t even have to hear her to think, Oh, this girl has got something.”
“Britney is such a sweet girl! We’ve gone through a lot of the same things, so we have a connection,” Lovato says.
What did you learn in rehab? @10ddlovato: “I’ve spent the past two years getting over an eating disorder and issues like self-harming and bipolar disorder. Unlike a person who doesn’t have these problems, I have to work on this stuff every day. I’m reminded of that whenever I eat or feel down.”
Why did you go public about your eating disorder? @jackierisser: “When I was younger, stick-figure thin was in and nobody was talking about eating disorders. I want girls to know that it’s OK when they grow up and their body changes. I want them to be aware that certain things they might do to lose weight can be dangerous—life-threatening, even.”
People never talk about cutting. Can you explain it? @SELFmagazine: “There were times I felt so anxious, almost like I was crawling out of my skin, that if I didn’t do something physical to match the way I felt inside, I would explode. I cut myself to take my mind off that. I just didn’t care what happened. I had no fear.”
How was it to be diagnosed with bipolar disorder? @pauladerrow: “Finding out I had a real emotional disorder helped me put together the pieces of the puzzle. I remember being on my tour bus thinking, My life is so awesome right now, but I’m so depressed. Then, a few days later, I’d be on top of the world. It was really confusing. When I got diagnosed, my life made more sense.”
How does it feel to be a spokesperson for Love Is Louder [the antibullying movement]? @RespectLovato: “When I was 12, I was bullied. It wasn’t physical, but sometimes I’d say to the girls, ‘Hit me! What you’re doing verbally and online is so much worse.’ That’s when a lot of my issues spiraled out of control. The things they called me will stick with me for life.”
“But going through that also made me stronger. Mean comments don’t affect me the same way because I’m more confident. If I read something where someone calls me a bitch, I know I’m not, so I laugh at it.”
Are you in a much happier place than in the past? @niallsdotebabby: “Definitely. You can choose to work toward happiness or not. I used to expect it to come to me, but it takes more than seeing a therapist once a week. I make time for myself and meditate. I’ve spent the past two years getting over an eating disorder and issues like self-harming and bipolar disorder. I have to work on this stuff every day. I’m reminded of that whenever I eat or feel down. And I haven’t used my cell in three months! Subconsciously, it was a crutch. When a room gets quiet, what do you do? Grab your phone! Now I can sit and have conversations with people.”
“Selena and I aren’t as close as we used to be, but she’ll always have a place in my heart.”
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